Where did the time go?

So i was watching Tanner bowl today and I was overcome with so many emotions.  I remember holding him for the first time, hearing him coo for the first time, first words, first steps...so many first.  Tanner and I have had a special bond from the first hug. And as I sat there looking at my true love I couldn't help but wonder if we would always be this close.  While I was pondering Tanner came up ... hugged me and said "i love you mommy." In that moment i finally understood what live for the moment and remember the little things means.  My Nanny used to tell me that all the time.  Now i totally get it. Don't worry about tomorrow it will take care if itself without any help from me or you!!  :)

Sometimes enough is enough

I have so many friends going through so many horrible things!! I have wives being abandoned left and right by those who shall not be named... there are babies sick and in hospitals ... friends losing their homes..
Friends in spiritual crisis...

I don't even know how to begin to pray. I feel sad and down myself. I am missing my family. I am feeling lost and adrift in a sea of the unknown ...

But ... I know Who holds tomorrow and I know He knows me. HE knows my heart so its okay that I don't know what to pray he knows my heart!

He knows my name... he sees each tear that falls and he hears me when I call!!

"Lately I have been winning battles left and right... but they don't see me when I'm wounded in the fight... and they don't know then I go running home when I fall down... they don't know who picks me up when no one is around... I close my eyes and cry for just awhile I know.. because deep inside this armour... this Warrior is a child."

After careful consideration

I have thought about this off and on all day. And after careful consideration I have decided... I like the movie Sharknado more than the movie Overboard with Goldie Hawn.   For those of you who know me you know what a big decision this was for me.