Over being Sunny

I know that there is a reason for everything and that good has come out of me having this Brain Bubble, but today, today I am tired. I am tired of the pain. I am tired of MRI scans. I am tired of going to Doctor's offices. I am tired of smiling when I want to scream why me??

So I did, I screamed why me? I try to be good and do good so why do I have to deal with this? It was very silent after that as I cried into my pillow for a good 10 minutes. That was when I heard my answer, "Because you're stronger than you know. Because you smile when you want to cry. Because you know I'll heal you. Because others see Me in you when you keep your faith in Me."

So as I sit here and wait for my doctor's appointments (yes that's plural) I feel lighter even though I'm still in pain. I feel hopeful even with all the unknowns. I know that good will come from the pain and light will always brighten the darkness.